There’s very little sweeter than sand beneath your feet, ocean wind, your littles shrieking with excitement, husband blissfully happy. I soak in the breeze and sun and people watching. Togetherness looks good on us. The ocean is so massive I feel as though a drop is meaningless. The waves lap the shore methodically. So many billions of grains of sand. The beauty breathtaking and indescribable. People enjoying the happiness that life near the ocean brings.
It all makes me feel so small, so minimal compared to the grandness of it all. And if I may offer up some vulnerability in order for your heart to have a safe place to land, in case my heart aligns with yours on this topic: I’ve been feeling that way as of late…small and insignificant, like one grain of sand on a beach. Replaceable. One of many. Maybe you have, too? I’ve been so wrapped up in how meaningless I’ve felt that I haven’t enjoyed the meaningful. A lot of things can be blamed on satan because he wants me in this place of feeling insignificant. But many times it’s my own fault. It’s my own sinful nature that puts my brain and heart in such disrepair. By not taking my thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5), by not reaching out to Christ, I’m setting up camp in a negative place.
Have you felt this way lately? Have you felt as though no one is close to you? Perhaps friends seem distant or nonexistent? Have you felt like just a grain of sand on an entire beach? Maybe it’s not people you feel distant from, but God.
I sit in the sand in the place where the water meets the shore and let it wash over me. I take handfuls of the wet sand and make small piles. When the wave comes, it washes away the piles and makes the sand smooth again. And I feel His presence strongly. I let Him wash over the dark, negative places that have taken over for too long. I allow a smoothing of my “piles,” hills, mountains I’ve built myself, knowing He can make them smooth again.
If you’re feeling small, I’m there with you and praying over you. You’re not alone. Let God wash over you. Allow time in His presence to work on the things you may be creating yourself without realizing it.
There are many verses that speak of our significance to God, but below are a few that I pray hit in all the places of your hearts that need smoothing:
Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you,
I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life.
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8
(While I’m a sinner now, He pursues me, He blesses me, He restores me.)
And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid;
you are worth more than many sparrows.