As a third-generation professional worrier, Pastor Matthew’s recent message on James 4:13-17 really convicted me. I’ve been working really hard at “letting go, and letting God.” Back in April, I found myself without a job. Coming from someone who’s worked since she was barely 16, this has been a really strange and challenging season for me. It has, however, been an answer to a prayer for deliverance. That sounds weird, I know, but being “downsized” was truly a blessing to me.
I’ve been diligently asking God, “Now what? Where do I go from here? What’s next?” In fact, I’ve been making that prayer part of my daily time with God. I KNOW that He’s going to provide the right place, and the right time, and the right situation. I KNOW that because He heard my prayer to be delivered from my previous situation, and He answered—in a VERY definite way!
The thing is, as I mentioned before, I’m a third generation worrier. I don’t blame anyone for that, it’s just the pattern of my life. Ask God, but keep worrying. That’s the rhythm, right? Wrong. Although Pastor Matthew was boarding an airplane the day he gave this message, he may as well have been right in front of me when he said that worrying was a form of arrogance. I had never looked at it that way, and it hit me right in the gut! It was an “A-ha” moment for sure, and I’ll be honest…I didn’t like it.
I’ve never considered myself an arrogant or boastful person (unless you’re a family member whom I have trounced on while playing a game, and I’m not counting that!). I realize in my desire to obey what God has for me next, I have also not completely given Him control of the outcome. I am inadvertently removing Him from the outcome and putting my hope in my own abilities. That’s a powerful, but true, statement. My abilities are NOT God’s abilities. Today, I spent time asking God to deliver me from worry and anxiety, because I realize this truly is a posture of arrogance and egotism.
It’s not about what WE do, but what GOD has done THROUGH us. Our God created this universe and could wipe it out at the blink of an eye if He so desired. What could we possibly have to worry about that’s bigger than our God? It truly is a pattern of behavior that those of us who are worriers have to pray that God molds and changes in us. This is one of those Joshua 1:9 opportunities: “Be strong and courageous.” Give it to God.
The entire time I’ve been compiling this, a song from my (now adult) son’s childhood keeps running through my head, so I’m just going to put it out there. It’s by Veggie Tales, which I know is not exactly evangelical, but stick with me. It says “God is bigger than the boogie man, He’s bigger than Godzilla or the monsters on TV. Oh, God is bigger than the boogie man, and He’s watching over you and me.” Doesn’t that really sum it up? God IS bigger. Give Him your worries. No take backs.