I’ve been spending time in a book about growing my faith as part of my daily devotionals. It’s simply about going deeper into my walk with Him. (I also realize there’s nothing “simple” in that sentence!) I found this book at a really great time in my life, and I’ve enjoyed really diving in and reflecting on my walk. In one of the chapters, it talks about a lady who had prayed and asked God about taking steps that required major changes in her life. She felt called to move forward with the change, but then started running into obstacles that prevented her from easily getting to her goal.
Have you been in that place? The place where God calls you to step out into the deep, but then, out of nowhere, you feel like He’s not there? It’s incredibly difficult, but there’s one thing I know for sure. He didn’t leave. At that very moment, He’s growing your faith. If you’re doing all that He has asked you to do and the timeline isn’t moving forward the way you think it should, you are likely in a place of growth.
That’s sometimes hard to accept. I find myself turning into a whiny little girl when it happens to me. It goes something like this: “But God…Youuuuuu told me to do this (or go here, there, etc)! Whhhhhyyyy are you leaving me here alone? Whaaat did I do wrong?” Is that you? Don’t make the mistake I’ve made countless times by wallowing in self-pity and miss the opportunity to see Him growing you and taking you deeper.
In this place, as I see it, you have two decisions: 1) be angry, and walk in fear…alone, or 2) talk to Him, turn to Him, and trust in Him. I don’t think I need to tell you which way is the right way. It’s so much easier to say to Him, “God, I don’t get what you’re doing right now, but I know you’re in charge. I trust you to help me get to the next step.”
During these times, I love to remember this scripture found in Isaiah 41:10: “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” He’s taking you deeper. He’s not leaving you!
Make this scripture your prayer when you find yourself feeling “hung out” and alone. I promise you, He wants you to learn from this experience. It’s hard. It’s taxing. Sometimes, it’s just down right exhausting…but in the end, you’re going to grow if you allow Him to do His work.