And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those
who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
Romans 8:28 NLT
We all have significant dates that stick out to us in our lives. Some are dates we celebrate every year, things like wedding anniversaries, kid’s birthdays, the day you got baptized. But there are other days that often you don’t know how you are going to feel the day they finally come around again…the anniversary of the death of a loved one, the anniversary of the day you lost a child, the day your marriage fell apart, and the list goes on and on. I had one of these anniversaries happen to me last week.
A year ago, something happened in my life that completely flipped my world upside down. The news of what was going on just crushed me, and I had no idea how in the world I was going to ever make it through. The following months consisted of many bouts of depression, panic attacks, and anxiety. It felt as if I would never get life back to “normal.” There were so many days full of tears and worry. I literally felt like my whole world was crashing in, and there wasn’t a single thing I could do about it.
Fast forward to a year later, and I stand here today actually celebrating this anniversary. Because what I didn’t know on that date a year ago was that God was about to do some amazing things in my life, in my marriage, and in the life of my family. All I could see was the hard road in front of me. All I could see in that moment was devastation. But today, I look back with thanksgiving. God broke chains and strongholds in my husband’s life. God helped me change some unhealthy things in my life. He used that season to build my character and to strengthen me; He challenged me and grew me as a person. It gave me the opportunity to really live out my faith and be Christ-like in a situation where it was tough. These things would have never happened had it not been for that season. Above it all, He used that season to remind me of His goodness and His faithfulness. He never abandoned me, He never left me…He was right there with me in the middle of the depression, in the middle of the panic attacks. He kept me going and used that season to almost create a new person in me, a person who I honestly like a lot better than the old me. It was almost as if I got a fresh start, a do-over. If that devastating day had never happened, I wouldn’t be where I am now. As hard as it was, I know that God orchestrated it for a greater good. My marriage and my family are healthier than ever before, I am a healthier person in all aspects, and my faith is the greatest it has ever been.
I hope you find encouragement in this. The season you are in right now may be one of the most difficult things God has ever taken you through, but don’t lose hope, my friends. He is working something greater than you could ever imagine. He’s got you, and He is going to be with you through it all. I hope, just like I have found, that you will be able to look back someday and realize the greatest devastation that happened in your life actually turned out to be one of the biggest blessings you could have ever received.
Jesus replied, “You don’t understand now what I am doing, but someday you will.”
John 13:7 NLT
And I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work
until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.
Philippians 1:6 NLT